Life after university…

Let’s just say it hasn’t been an easy one! As I always wanted to document my journey, this blog post is based on just that. My aim is to help and inspire those of you who are also in the same position, to keep striving and reaching your goals.

My Internship.

As some of you may know if you read my blog posts. I started an internship last year in digital marketing for a very luxury fashion brand. I was extremely excited and ready to get into the field of work even though it was unpaid. I was also applying to many paid jobs at the time but kept on getting rejected/ignored. Meanwhile, I was quite frustrated and bored of not doing much with my time except waking up and feeling very unproductive. Quite fortunately, I was successful at the interview (one of the best interviews I’ve ever had because I felt so comfortable and knew what I was talking about) and decided to take on the opportunity and gain experience in my field.

When I first started I really enjoyed it and some of the colleagues I met along the way. There were many other interns like me in different departments, So I was never alone or feeling left out. Gradually, I got the hang of it and built a routine which I made sure to follow on my days at work. For example checking and updating their social media platforms, responding to emails, etc, the usual. Furthermore, my manager and other colleagues in my department would allocate tasks for me, but they were quite straightforward and didn’t really need too much thought. I always finished my tasks quite quickly so I ended up having a lot of spare time at hand.

Weeks went by and I started to feel unchallenged, Idle and bored. I was always asking for new tasks as I wanted to learn so much more and felt that my capabilities were much more than they expected of me. I felt like I was disturbing my manager as she became really distant and less responsive. It just felt awkward and uncomfortable. Bearing in mind I hate those kinds of situations, especially in the workplace. It got to the point where I didn’t even want to go in, because I knew I wouldn’t be given anything or much to do and I will just be at my desk tapping and sitting in front of the google screen or trying to write a blog post without anyone seeing me do so, haha!

Don’t get me wrong, I know I needed to use my initiative at times and create new ideas myself but as an intern you need support, you need to be taught the things you don’t know and the things they don’t teach you at University. However, this wasn’t really the case in this situation.

I must not forget, for over a month I wasn’t even given an actual desk and computer that was sufficient for the work I was given. Do you remember those exam desks in secondary school? My desk was even a little bit smaller than that with no space to write on, nowhere to store my little bits at work. It was so uncomfortable. Some people wouldn’t mind this, but knowing that you are not the only intern in the company and everyone else has a proper desk and working space/facilities sufficient to them, your thoughts would be…why am I different.

Long story short I really started to hate going into work and dreaded every day, knowing that I wasn’t learning anything much and not even getting paid for the hours I had put in. I decided to hand in my notice within the second month (meant to be 3 months), but to be honest, I really stuck it out for the 2nd month because I was so ready to leave. I knew I wasn’t being challenged and I knew I wasn’t physically being taught anything that I didn’t already know. So I left and it was the happiest decision I’ve made! I felt free no longer confined and working 7 days a week (because I had to work part-time in the weekends to pay bills and travel etc).

Jobless, Broke and Unhappy

So as you can imagine going from working 9 to 5 every day to no job was one of the worst feelings ever. I felt like I was back at square one! Nevertheless, I kept going, applying, getting rejected because I still didn’t have enough experience” at this point I was very frustrated that I took time out of my own week to work, unpaid and to still be unable to get a job. After a while, I stopped applying and started focusing on myself my blog and just bettering myself and the skills I already had. That’s where I started spending more of my time creating and improving my content.

I was randomly searching for marketing courses and came across Digital Grads, a graduate tailored platform that prepares you for a position in the marketing industry. I really enjoyed using my time to complete this course as it made me feel like I was working towards a goal. I was still working part-time during the weekends in retail but dedicated my weekdays solely to myself and personal development. Whilst doing this I barely applied for that many jobs and most of the job interviews that came my way were companies who reached out to me.

These companies looked amazing to work for and had such a good reputation in the industry. I strived for the interviews and really put in the work. One of them involved a presentation, which I’ve never had to do before in an interview but I really wanted this job, so I made sure to put effort into it.

Feedback came through 2 weeks later I was frustrated because they made me wait so long to say, “You were great and we really loved you but you didn’t have enough experience compared to other candidates”. At this point, I was just like why me? I went for another interview for a very successful media agency somewhere I would have loved to work, again. The first interview went well but guess what the feedback was: “we really liked you, but we feel like you would get bored after a while” wow. I’ve never heard of such a thing in life, I think I should at least have an input into whether I’d feel bored or not. They then suggested other roles and made me go through a second interview, oh and I forgot to add, I had to do tests for this specific company. I attended the interview, received feedback a week after poor communication on their end “We just feel you didn’t have much experience to other candidates” Oh My, at this point I was tired of hearing the same thing again after going through probably 20 or so interviews.

The Breakthrough!

One morning I got a call from the course (Digital Grads) I was doing, saying that they have a job opportunity for me and If I’m available for an interview asap. Although I felt very disheartened, upset, extremely not excited or hopeful. I stuck it out and went for the interview. Surprisingly I smashed it, I didn’t even feel up for it that day, I felt so down and hopeless. But I definitely, expressed my potential and what I have done and experienced to get me where I am today, me being totally real, how I grew my own platform out of nothing, how I started a blog 4 years ago and gained a good following but wasn’t proud of or confident in it, deleted it and started all over again.

It paid off. Every. Single. Piece. Of. Struggle. Was for a very. Good reason! I’m now happily working in the field of work that I always dreamed of in the position I never expected to be in as a self-starter. I am so grateful and I really hope this inspires you to keep going” Attaining and achieving your dreams, striving for success, even in the times where you feel like no one understands you or sees your potential. Let me tell you. SOMEONE SURELY WILL, JUST BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!

I know this is a long one but, as always, I hope it inspired, helped and encouraged you to keep going and believing in your situation. Have faith that you will overcome and achieve.

Thank you so much for your support and reading my blog.

Thank you to the team at Digital Grads for continuously, supporting me and encouraging me to keep going till the end! (This is not sponsored content, I just really recommend it to those of you who are looking to go into a digital marketing career, but have no idea how to).

Till next time…

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